Sunday, December 9, 2007

An artist's work is never done... thank god!

While it may seem to many that the reason artists like to stay self employed is to lay in bed and eat bonbon til noon and play through life.... I'm here to tell you it is so much harder than any 9 to 5 or even 8 to 8 job in the "real" world could ever be.

Right now I am working on several different projects. I have 4 private commissions currently on the easel. I am working everyday to also create enough product for the weekend art fairs and craft shows I do. Besides my usual landscapes and the cards and small collectible pieces I produce right now in oil and pastel, I am also developing my technique as a silk painter (and the rewards and response has been great in that market this fall for me) But I need months to complete the learning curve and to produce the quality work I desire in this other medium. I just don't have enough hours in the day right now!

I am working fiendishly to keep up with applications for solo and group shows nationally, as well as juggling craft shows that will provide me with the necessary exposure and income.

I love it all! I'm surprisingly good at it all. but at times I want to sit and cry from being tired. I'm often exhausted because of trying to fit in painting, dying, stretching, mailing. writing and selling with household chores, teaching, a relationship. On top of that sometimes I feel I've spent a year plus working on something because someone said " This is good!" This is the direction you should be going!" "This is edgy and modern do it!"only to find that there is not really a market for me. I know building an art career can take years. I don't have years. I don't have as my mom would say "a pot to piss in". I only have talent! I'm half way through my life now. I've never in my life had a vacation of any kind. I can't afford to take a day off from work. AND STILL... I am the luckiest person in the world. I get to do the thing I love more than anything in the world - Create beautiful things that people love and wish to own and share.

Today I am finishing holiday gift boxes, updating my resume, building new stretchers for silk, painting 20 pieces of silk for a retail store, cooking lunch for my BF and working on 4 new sketches for a commissioned painting. January I'll sleep... Maybe!

Until next time

Create Beauty and fill the world with love!